tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11844637692111562482024-02-22T02:23:02.846-08:00後‧現代文學after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.comBlogger97125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-67222359037097583072014-06-23T20:36:00.003-07:002014-06-23T20:36:41.305-07:00【刊頭語】第10期:夢<div class="MsoNormal">
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">就像一場夢一樣,《後.現代文學》也堂堂邁入第十期了!作為目前全校唯一的文藝性創作刊物,我們很高興能堅持著這樣一個藝文的平台,持續關注文學、電影、戲劇與音樂的各種面向,彼此激盪出清脆的聲響。深信在校園的某個角落,不管被聽見或不被聽見,那些聲音是真正存在過的。我們也在發想主題、寫稿與審稿的過程中不斷蛻變,為自身寫作的精進,更為長久參與後現文、支持後現文、投稿後現文以及加入後現文的老朋友與新朋友們。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #404040; font-family: "Courier New"; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">這一期的後現文專欄主題是「夢」,收錄了兩首為夢而作之詩《夢醒以前》、《夢霓》。樂評《於夢境的世界蒼涼前行-</span><span lang="EN-US">ELECTROCUTIA</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">》介紹充滿魔幻寫實元素的日本地下音樂組合。而接續上一期的專欄主題「表演藝術」,劇評《在土地上起舞》帶我們重回大埔<土地計畫>現代舞劇之現場。專欄以外的純文學創作,則包含短篇小說《夾娃娃機與貪食蛇》以及在後現文持續刊載的小說系列《K的故事》。希望大家會喜歡這一期豐富的內容。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #404040; font-family: "Courier New"; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">任何一期的後現文,篇幅都是有限的,所以才有分期的必要。但我們深切盼望著,就算第十期的出刊忙完,我們的「夢」還一直都在,永遠都不要醒來。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #404040; font-family: "Courier New"; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-28361882880385252012014-06-23T20:31:00.001-07:002014-06-23T20:37:16.135-07:00【小說】夾娃娃機與貪食蛇<div class="MsoNormal">
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 只要是有補習的晚上,我就會通過這裡,從地下街南側靠近中段,編號Z</span><span lang="EN-US">4</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">的出口離開。一開始根本記不得什麼編號的,老是走錯出口,然後迷失在地表的都市街網裡頭,於是我學會使用地下街的街景認路。入口進去,走右邊。靠出口側的店面不是賣衣服鞋子的就是賣吊飾項鍊的;另一側的店面可就十分多樣了-賣麵包的、賣雨傘的、賣唱片的、一家便利商店、賣佛珠水晶的,緊鄰著的是一個貫穿地下街左右兩邊的小型廣場,坐著幾個穿紅黑馬褂的師傅在給人算命看相。</span><span lang="EN-US"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 離出口最近的店叫做「娃娃帝國」,店裡全部都是夾娃娃機。童話般粉紅色的機身,十分擁擠地一台挨著一台放著,店內剩下來當作走道的空間,只夠讓兩個人擦身而過。機台的上半部是四面透明的,可以直接透過一半以上的機台從一端望穿到地下街的另一端,看街上的行人。懸吊在玻璃箱頂部的,銀色的爪子排成長長一列,就算沒有人在夾娃娃,爪子們也若有似無地,以某種節奏搖晃著,產生不同的擺幅。好像他們是有生命的,就算隔著一層玻璃也聽得見,店裡無時無刻播送的電子嘉年華。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 比較正確的說法是相撞,因為當時我邊走邊偏頭向右,陶醉地猛盯著豆豆龍瞧,想必臉上也掛著豆豆龍招牌的咧嘴大笑。(其實我更喜歡小煤灰,他們出現的時候總是很少被人看到,睜著圓呼呼大眼觀察小梅和小月,但是小煤灰們並不知道,有人也在螢幕外觀察他們。)突然就被迎面而來的人的左手肘,直接撞擊到我的左額。我痛得瞇起眼睛,像是想搶先掩飾什麼似的哇哇大叫:</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 同樣的儀式持續有一個月,而沈守沒去上課已經超過兩個月了。我其實也不知道這儀式的意義在哪裡,只是沈守這樣做,他也沒有阻止我跟在他身邊。那天我們在補習班教室的門口再度撞見,他已經放好書包準備溜回去。同在一間教室裡這麼久,竟然從來沒有發現。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「你知道為什麼我一直拿著它嗎?」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 這是沈守第一次開口問我問題,以前總是我拿各種莫名奇妙的問題煩他。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 我搖搖頭。關於沈守,我根本一無所知。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「第一次有人把遊戲放到手機裡的,就是這支</span><span lang="EN-US">Nokia 3310</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 沈守把手機螢幕湊過來。螢幕的外緣有一個長方形的框框,框框裡有四個黑點黏在一起,連成一條粗粗短短的直線,正以固定的速率不斷在移動著。沈守用拇指按了某個鍵,直線帶頭的黑點便從原本往右走變成往上走,其後的黑點緊隨其後,直線彎成一條折線,四次閃爍之後又變回直線,只是方向已經不同。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 框框裡還有一個黑點是靜止不動的。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">***</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「這個遊戲叫做貪食蛇,你要控制蛇走的方向讓他去吃食物-就是那一個黑色的小點。每次蛇吃到食物以後,螢幕就會顯示下一個黑點,那就是下一個蛇要去吃的食物。蛇每吃一次食物,身體就會變長一格。但蛇如果去撞到框框,或是撞到自己的身體,遊戲就結束了。所以身體越長,分數就越高,遊戲也越容易結束。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「這遊戲有這麼好玩嗎?最後不是去撞牆就是咬到自己。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 沈守笑了,非常扎實的,毫無心虛感的笑。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「你說的沒錯,但這是貪食蛇的規則。要把遊戲玩好,首先必須遵守規則,再來才是在規則的允許之下,想辦法獲得最高的分數,在遊戲結束以前。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「在蛇死掉以前?」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「對,在蛇死掉以前。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「那蛇死掉之後呢?」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「讓遊戲重新開始,就又會有一條新的蛇了」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「但是原本那條吃得彎彎曲曲的蛇還是死掉了,被自己絞死或是一頭撞死在牆上。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「那不是玩遊戲的人應該關心的,規則無法避免它發生。或者應該說,規則還要促成它發生,因為遊戲必須結束,規則得做自我的終結。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「我討厭規則。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「所以你總是想要違反規則。你告訴我的那些無法解釋的事,都是違反規則的。什麼沒有鑰匙的鎖,在地圖上找不到的房間,一通過就再也回不來的隧道,全是小說家一廂情願的想像。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 我有點被惹火了,可不知道為什麼,竟同時有股想要流淚的衝動。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「這些都是小說家設定的規則,他們在小說裡都是有意義的!」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「那一點都不真實。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「遊戲規則難道就比較真實?」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 「是的。因為我們的世界有一天也會結束。」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-52323919430863008612014-06-23T20:12:00.001-07:002014-06-23T20:37:37.021-07:00【小說】K的故事<div class="MsoNormal">
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-86661008136023951202014-06-23T19:46:00.000-07:002014-06-23T20:37:54.680-07:00【劇評】在土地上起舞:記《蕭紫菡舞蹈劇場-土地計畫》及座談會<div class="MsoNormal" style="mso-pagination: widow-orphan; text-align: justify; text-justify: inter-ideograph;">
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">星期六的清晨,自3件衣服上身仍有寒意滲入的花蓮出發,5個小時後抵達了一塊我從未到過的土地,為了一場將在苗栗大埔張藥房展開的演出。於竹南火車站乘著計程車,到達位於仁愛路和公義路交叉口的張藥房,這時,天上已無半朵雲來攔住毒辣的太陽,而我站立之處,原應該有個可供庇護的家屋,如今只剩<span lang="EN-US">0.3</span>坪的斷垣殘壁,和正午的太陽兀自曝曬著。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">正午一點,舞作「</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">土地計畫</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">」便開始了,一名身著黑西裝的闖入者走來,在牆前佇立,時間被引力拉扯而慢了下來。當他開始走動,緩步經過一群撐起黑傘,阻絕著日頭的黑衣人,在烈日下宛若送葬者的行列,不發一語。這時,開始有音樂推擠著空氣,闖入者的經過,更使他們站不住腳,潰不成軍,不斷掙扎扭動著,只能拄著傘,才能勉強站立,最後,當最前頭的黑衣人放棄抵抗,他們便一個接著一個,收整隊形,追隨那闖入者而去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">跟著舞者及工作人員們前行的路上,我的心中始終盤旋著一個揮之不去的問號,沿路上,我們經過許多附近居民的住宅,有些人會在陽台上看著我們這群人,也有些孩子隨著舞者的動作,發出嘻鬧聲。但是在地居民的參與似乎是有限的,且這也不是一場現代舞的推廣表演,因此真有必要在大埔呈現一齣舞作嗎?既名為土地計畫,除了作品中的各種元素,整齣舞作、舞團的舞者及表現的形式,如何與土地和在地居民產生千絲萬縷的關聯呢?若非如此,又何須來到大埔跳舞?既然舞團離開劇場,選擇走入離事件最近的地方,我想觀者所希望看到的就不是只有一個地方的氛圍,造就了一齣舞作,而是一齣舞作能藉著這塊土地的力量,將場所的回應,反照到觀者的心中。而這也才不會愧對了這塊土地所能給予的滋養和能量。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">至此,這支舞作來到最動人的時刻,一名男子自身後擁抱住她,耳語纏綿,兩人彷彿想將對方化作彼此身體的部分,男子細心為她脫去雙眼的束縛,雙人舞到此,我相信這是對已逝張藥房頭家<span lang="EN-US">-</span>張森文的招魂儀式,但該還給時間的依然得還給時間,思念已到盡頭,此處仍是生者的世界,男子緩緩離去。當男子沒入草叢,一群紅衣人自草叢中行出,帶著激烈的動作,在田園中翻起一波波紅浪,浪濤甚至舉起女子,將其重重摔下,女子倒臥一旁,紅衣人散去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">幸好編舞者的目光是溫暖的,她提醒著我們此地仍留有希望,一名著草綠色衣服的女子帶著樹木之枝幹走來,彷彿對著樹木低語和愛撫。在觀眾視野的兩旁,亦有一群白衣人帶著青綠的稻禾前來,他們無比崇敬的禮拜,並將稻禾放置在本是荒土的地上。綠衣女子若巫若神靈,豎起樹的枝幹,繞著它盤旋打轉,綠色的裙擺在烈日下散佈綠意,荒土亦恍若重現生機。這時,人群中步出一人,緩緩行至倒臥在地上的女子身旁,如果曾關注過大埔事件的人們,都不會對這勇敢且堅毅的臉孔陌生,她就是張藥房的秀春姐。秀春姐緩緩扶起女子並拆開她手上的束縛,「</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">土地計畫</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">」這支舞作於此步入尾聲。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">最後,切莫忘記一件至關緊要的事,參與本身即是力量的展現,絕非動動手指按讚所能比擬,尤其是當你踏入這實實在在佈滿人之氣味的空間,遇見了生活在此處的人,場所能給予你的回應,即使在離去之後,仍將會不斷地搥打你堅硬的心靈,舞者在土地上起舞的畫面,透過瞳孔烙印在每個人的心中,當這個印記存在,我們將時時謹記,我們與他人及這片土地息息相關。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-14210481202021673702014-06-23T18:03:00.001-07:002014-06-23T19:54:49.342-07:00【刊頭語】第9期:表演藝術◎後現文編輯群,2013年末<br />
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這一期的後現文專欄,以「表演藝術」為主題,收錄了藝術評論與雜文,主題橫跨古代戲曲、台灣戲劇藝術奇才李國修、雲門舞集與複合式的現代舞劇演出等,希望與喜愛文字也喜愛藝術的朋友們,一起看看台灣當今的藝文界風貌。<br />
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本期的電影評論以剛剛結束的金馬影展為題收錄短評兩則,音樂評論亦帶我們欣賞匈牙利國家廣播交響樂團的演出;純文學創作,則以兩篇小說、一首詩在年底的此刻為我們總結了二零一三年。<br />
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此外,即將迎向二零一四新年頭的此時,後現文也終於登記成為校內的正式社團,後現文全體編輯感謝各位朋友長久以來的支持,讓我們一起向這一期的豐富內容say hello,並一起期待未來更多寫作的能量在校園中發聲。after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-20415253720537742452014-06-23T17:45:00.000-07:002014-06-23T19:52:29.926-07:00【劇評】劫毀之後──評2013台北藝穗節舞蹈《危城‧吶喊》<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: left;">
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">末日來臨時我們該何去何從?當輝煌的文明瀕臨崩壞邊緣,班雅明「歷史天使」的著名寓言,正說明現代性的線性進步史觀/時間觀是如何改造、摧毀人們賴以生存的古老世界:「</span><span style="font-family: 標楷體;">眼凝睇、口弛張、翼正展,此即如何想像歷史天使的模樣。他的臉朝向過去,在我們感知連鎖事件之處,他只見單一的災難,殘骸不斷堆積於殘骸之上,並被捲擲到他的跟前。天使欲留,喚醒死者,重整劫毀,但風暴從天堂吹下,以如此強勁之力撐起他的雙翼,再也無法閉合。無從抗拒的風暴,迫使他背對著走向未來,在他面前持續堆疊的碎片殘骸,高聳入雲。此風暴即我們所謂的進步。</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">」</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">在狹窄的走道上跳舞並非易事,舞者們卻成功地克服了(尤其是在摔跤時),還利用步道與地面之間的落差擴大表演空間,期間更走下觀眾席</span><span lang="EN-US">──</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">不是互動,僅是接觸罷了,他們不言不語,有的面無表情,有的以垂憐的眼神凝望,那時一位如靈通透、如魂飄忽的女舞者靠近我,當她指尖輕撫我的髮再滑落肩頭的時候,我打從心底感到一股顫慄,彷彿白先勇筆下那位「通身銀白的女祭司」尹雪艷,冰冷而美麗,一雙無情眼眸看盡人間生老病死,愛恨悲欣。表演藝術最大的魅力之一,即是臨場感。當我看見他們眼中糾纏著沮喪與靈光,以及掙扎、衝撞、爆發後的沉寂、死滅後的重生</span><span lang="EN-US">……</span><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">活生生的人就是劇場最吸引人之處。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-bidi-font-family: 新細明體; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 0pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-10789062264152759882014-06-23T16:40:00.000-07:002014-06-23T19:53:49.279-07:00【劇評】在我墳上起舞:觀華光舞蹈劇場《土地計劃》<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">《在我墳上起舞》是英國小說家艾登‧錢伯斯的作品,主要講的是兩名青少年彼此約定,如果有誰先死了,另一個活下來的人就要到死者的墳上跳舞,是一個探討愛與死亡、以及人與人的羈絆如何跨越生命的故事。「在我墳上起舞」。就算有一些事情已經煙消雲散了,但我們還是賣力地舞動身體,好留下一些什麼。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">2013</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">年末,《土地計劃》的第一場演出就在華光上演。演出完全免費,但由於場地與人員限制,每一場演出只開放</span><span lang="EN-US">25</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">人報名,所以能夠觀賞的人數非常有限,我很幸運地躋身其中。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-69690981766762320042014-06-23T16:05:00.003-07:002014-06-23T19:54:13.143-07:00【影評】金馬50觀影評論:《聖血》<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-38724346858930128602014-06-23T16:00:00.000-07:002014-06-23T19:52:10.377-07:00【影評】金馬50觀影評論:《咎愛》<div class="MsoNormal">
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-20397874295948991072014-06-23T15:55:00.000-07:002014-06-23T19:53:59.855-07:00【詩】二〇一三<div class="MsoNormal">
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-73298268381771089332014-06-23T15:52:00.000-07:002014-06-23T19:54:22.280-07:00【小說】告白<div class="MsoNormal">
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">升上國中以前,廣義的戀愛對象-喜歡過和被喜歡過的對象-少說也有三四個。所以我很清楚,那會是怎樣的感受。我不知道別的同學是不是也和我一樣,</span>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">已經寫下今天的聯絡事項,等會要抄在黑板上。我的手在發抖。</span><span lang="EN-US"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">二年級的課業壓力逐漸加重,待在教室裡比之前來得更加沉悶,而同時,有一股異樣的氣味在教室裡開始充斥,誰也不會形容這股氣味,誰也不清楚這氣味的來源。但是,整日浸淫在氣味中的我們,隱約察覺到彼此之間的改變。</span><span lang="EN-US"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> 為了避免跟那些男孩混在一起,大部分的休息時間我都待在教室,看自己的書,或是發呆。偶爾朋友經過搭一兩句閒話,只讓我愈加暴露在自己的沉默底下。</span>
<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">不知是沉默太久讓自己的聲音聽來陌生,還是突然轉變的聲音使我沉默。聽說這叫「變聲」,可是我一點也不相信,我有我充分的理由,是氣味暗示著我。就像消毒水的氣味暗示著我們在一座游泳池裡,但在水裡我們是什麼都聞不到的,因為必須閉著氣,只有在露出水面換氣時才大口大口地吸進氣味彷彿我們的五</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">除了耳蝸將會和自己的頭顱骨一同震動,和嘴巴開闔溢出的氣泡在笑你愚蠢以外</span><span lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">你什麼也聽不到的。</span><span lang="EN-US"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">升學考試近在眼前,班導開始要求全班留校晚自習。不只是我們這班,國三班佔據的整棟大樓到了八九點都還燈火通明。大部分的日子班導會留下來陪我們,</span>
<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">兼具穩定軍心及管理秩序的效果,不過每天加班到九點半對一個早上六七點就必須上班的國中老師而言並不公平,因此,有時我會被班導指派在講台前坐鎮著,</span>
<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">以班長的身分。尤其是升學事務繁多的國三下,班導表示,行政工作就應該交給最令人安心的學生負擔。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">「小樹,你是這個班指標性的人物哪,班上的讀書風氣就靠你維持了」</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">男孩們轟傳著我喜歡佳兒的事,就連跟男生關係良好的女孩們也都知道了。</span> <span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">儘管雙方都作保證不會向本人透露半句,可是看他們衝著我上揚的嘴角,彷彿在說:</span>
<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">小樹阿小樹,你終於成為我們笑柄了。我只能苦笑以對,心中充滿無奈和懊悔,卻還真帶點一絲絲的甜。畢竟是我先按捺不住,跟高個吐實的。</span><span lang="EN-US"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">不,佳兒不可能會相信的。至少我表現出來的根本不像是那樣,雖然確實有點不太自然,可是我大概對每個班上的女生都是這樣,不太愛說話,只有傻笑和點頭,默默看著別人耍寶逗女生笑的人。常常會被問課業上的問題,制式的回答對我來說倒挺容易。只是有一次,有一次在右邊往前數第二個位置的她託坐我旁邊的女生問問題,她一側身,轉過頭來就朝我這個方向望。</span>
<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">當時我臉頰發燙,腦中一片空白,馬上把頭往下撇,又怎能發出一丁點聲音來?</span>
<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">迅速寫了張紙條往旁邊塞,急忙站起身跑出教室吹初春的冷風。</span><span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">我為了搪塞別人可以說一百個喜歡妳的理由,可是真正的原因只有一個,因為那場夢。</span><span lang="EN-US"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">是下課老是喜歡待在廁所裡嘻鬧玩耍的那群男孩,雖然我很少加入他們的集會活動,成員裡每一個我都跟他們處的都還不錯的,怎麼今天他們如此一致地面對我</span><span lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">露出絕非善意的笑呢?我把手彆扭的背在背後,用詢問的表情看著他們。</span><span lang="EN-US"> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US">[</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">她的那個是黑色的耶</span><span lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">穿在白色運動服裡面好明顯喔</span><span lang="EN-US">]<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-62070328403848520102014-06-23T15:42:00.002-07:002014-06-23T19:51:03.290-07:00【小說】K的故事<div class="MsoNormal">
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<span class="s1">黑手那卡西-工人樂隊,由工人與工運組織在1996年成立,一般多稱呼為「黑手那卡西」、「黑手」。十餘年來,他們持續與社運團體合作,以集體創作、工作坊等方式,積極教導樂器彈奏、歌曲創作等音樂教育工作,使勞動者能夠掌握音樂、藝術等文化工具,其音樂主題涵蓋樂生、都更、娼妓等議題,是學運及社運圈廣為聆聽的獨立樂團。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">在社運的參與與音樂創作的結合上,黑手那卡西是如何堅持理念?又如何看待關懷社會議題的學生族群?本期後‧現代文學,特別邀請黑手那卡西成員育麟與耀婷接受專訪,一探黑手的面貌。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">後‧現代文學訪問員(以下簡稱後):以臺大而言,黑手聽眾多半都是社運參與者,一般的臺大學生則較少聽聞黑手。這與黑手的曝光、經營模式是否有關?你們的音樂是否有主要針對的對象?</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑手那卡西(以下簡稱黑):黑手的理念是「跟抗爭當中的人在一起」,所以比較常接觸到的對象多是社運的參與者。不過黑手也很常到學校裡講唱,對學生表演不同面向的音樂,在主流媒體以外開啟一種新的音樂接觸形式,也讓底層的族群在學生面前「現身」,讓工人、讓娼妓直接在學生面前唱歌,使學生發覺社會上有和自己截然不同的人在生活著,產生生命經驗的連結。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑手不像一般的大眾音樂廣為人知,也不是用上電視等方式來培養聽眾。用一個比喻來說,同樣的時間人力安排,比起給5個人聽、每個人獲得20%的感動,讓1個人可以100%地參與更是我們的目標。相較於擁有聽眾、讓音樂廣為流傳,黑手真正的著力點還是「集體創作」,讓人們成為創作者,取得音樂能力作為文化武器,用音樂表達理念,還有讓青年們,與我們關注的這些弱勢者、底層發生關係,有一些對我們音樂有興趣、對社運有興趣的人,可以加入這個行列。不然就變成我們像是一個名人,偶爾成為社運議題音樂代言者,這不是我們主要的目的,更重要的深化大家的參與。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">後:黑手演出時,有沒有特別的經營目標?</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑:在黑手很常做校園演唱會上,我們通常會問兩個問題:學生們聽完黑手的演出後,會不會想要傳播我們的音樂?以後遇到社運場合、聽到社會議題,會不會開始想要去接觸、想要去看一看?後來觀察,我們的演出效果通常都很成功,有學生對我們反映,黑手改變了他對於社運現場暴力的印象,而且羞愧於以前對社運內幕的不了解,現在才知道社運者的心聲。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑手對音樂的傳達也有與一般樂團不同的要求。黑手不介意觀眾人數,萬人的場子或一二十人的都可以唱。音響設備也沒有關係,社運場合通常音響設備條件不能要求,我們就以帶動唱的方式來進行。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">但我們特別在意把歌詞投影出來。歌詞是很重要一環,其他樂團有的只是氣氛的傳達,但黑手的歌詞是在表達特定族群的處境,希望大家都知道我們在唱什麼。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">此外黑手也很期待與一般大眾對話,例如2011立委選舉時,我們作了十幾場音樂會,用音樂媒介在路上傳播一般市民的想法,對於藍綠、都更、房價的想法等等。當時在龍山寺公園做了一些演出,在街頭找人就一起即興創作一些小作品,把人們當下的社會處境透過創作表達出來,讓現場很多人取得共鳴。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">後:黑手的音樂風格一直以來似乎很難在商業市場被定位在某一個音樂領域。對於自己的音樂,你們是否有自己的定位?</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑:其實很難,黑手從來不是一群固定的人,會與很多人合作,像是各個領域的工人,樂生的院民,和娼妓,不同的成員都會加一點音樂風格進去。像集體創作時有一些年長創作者會哼唱六七零年代的民歌,甚至是日本演歌,還有一個基督教阿姨會結合她聽過的教會音樂唱出一種溫暖的感覺等等。黑手並不在乎整體風格,我們更在乎跟我們合作的人能把他們的生命經驗創作進歌曲。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">後:一般對於黑手的音樂常常有「議題性高、但美學價值偏低」的評價。對於這樣的看法,黑手是否有何回應?</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑:黑手創團的宗旨本來就不是「我們要搞音樂」,我們的音樂是放在現實裡,社運、抗爭、組織、政治……的現實。我們很清楚音樂的政治功能。黑手的音樂是跟著運動的過程而生,一直在思考「音樂要如何運動?」,集體創作的目標也就是這樣。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">音樂性其實就是一種與大家的可親性,像工人團員50歲才開始學吉他,他們的音樂很「粗糙」,可是很樸質,唱出一些他們特有的味道。很多人覺得黑手的音樂不具有美學性,但美學性到底是用什麼來界定?我們可能在主流市場的標準下是不及格,可是黑手呈現庶民自己的美學,如果能夠更貼合它自己歷史、社會的脈絡,我們覺得更有價值。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">後:台灣的社會議題很多,平常黑手在不同社運的參與上曝光度似乎不同,是否在參與哪一些社運參與上有所取捨?</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑:黑手在某些社會議題參與比較深,有些並不是刻意造成的,例如比較關鍵的原因之一是黑手從創立起跟工委會和火盟都長期是友好的往來關係,就會大量出現。不過我們關注的主要大方向也決定了黑手在不同議題的參與度,黑手特別在意社會階級的面向,像是勞工處境,還有娼妓,涉及性別也涉及階級。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">這樣的過程也一次一次考驗我們自己怎麼看這個議題,有什麼想法,進一步延伸到很多黑手想提出的社會訴求,像我們覺得政府做事不對、覺得代議制有問題,那就進一步想,我們希望怎麼辦?黑手一直耕耘的集體創作就是其中一個回應。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">後:最後想請問,對於被視為「社運潛力軍」的學生/青年族群,黑手對自己是否有什麼樣的期待呢?</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑:以聽眾培養而言,目前黑手並不以在校園內廣泛傳播為目的。這一方面牽涉到我們有沒有管道,像是校園社團社課邀請,仰仗校園內的一些動力,像2009年臺大學生雞哥辦了一個「校長高潮演唱會」,黑手也有演出。另一方面也牽涉到上述所說,黑手的目的一直都不是擁有廣大的聽眾群,所以並沒有特別經營。</span></div>
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<span class="s1">黑手期待的是培養參與者,對所謂的社運潛力軍,我們希望吸引到喜歡音樂的人,有人開始想要來看看,能加入我們在做的事,並且組織起來,深化參與,發展未來在運動中的計畫。這個部分黑手就會非常願意與校園的學生單位合作,不論是個人或團體都是。其實學生真的不用把自己看小了,所有的參與都是一份力量,尤其學生身上有很多社運主體所沒有的文化能量,有學生的加入,確實可以讓社運產生全新的風貌,這是黑手相當期待的事。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">K只是K,是法文的K、德文的K,</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">K可以是ㄎ、是ケ、け與こ,K甘於被寫為か列的平假名、片假名,濁音或拗音的話勉強可以接受;可以是</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">”kesepian”</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">的K,也能是</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">”kimsəsiz”</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">的K,K服膺於一切語言中送氣清喉塞音的稱呼。</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">如果今天的K不是昨天的K、也不是</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">1989</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">年</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">4</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">月</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">7</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">日,那個太過晴朗以致招來雷陣雨的午後,雨將下未下,一切壞的事情正要發生前的那個K;那麼,我們就可以推斷,K是流動的,就像流浪者之歌裡老去的擺渡人悉達多每日注視的河水一般,河看似是河,從未變過,實際上,前一秒的河水與下一秒的河水已截然不同,不同的水分子</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">(H2O)</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">波濤洶湧地交互遞嬗,如果每個水分子</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">(H2O)</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">都有名字的話,那就會像每秒沈沒一次的亞特蘭堤斯,大陸上瞬間蒸散的眾生靈。K並不來自亞特蘭堤斯,K是流動的,像恆河的水,那麼,K也可以偶爾、或曾經是「我」</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">—</span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">敘事者的、寫作者的,但現在必然不是了,因為作為敘事者,「我」正坐在K的面前,他正因某些原因陷入沈睡,我靠近他,直到足以細數他那纖長、濕潤的睫毛,因長期的閉眼而相互沾黏的睫毛、缺水而稍稍乾裂泛白的雙唇,鼻翼隨著長緩的呼吸微微擴張、收縮、擴張、收縮,像是某種翅膀纖薄的羽族。他的五官輪廓清晰、色彩鮮明,被單的皺摺與起伏標明了藏匿其下的軀幹與四肢的位置,一切都是那麼明確,沒有可以模糊、置喙的空間,我不用任何意識的展現也能確信自己仍安處在現實之中。</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">但是,有沒有可能,在我描述他的當下,K便在我面前迅速融解,就像被誤放入烤箱的整桶冰淇淋那樣,香草口味的冰淇淋融成濁白甜膩的汁液,好像火山爆發的白化症版本那樣四處流溢。在那之後,如果把融掉的冰淇淋汁液妥善收集回原本的保利龍小圓桶,放回冰箱,它會再次凝固,微細的冰晶體、氣泡和脂肪粒、乳醣分子會重新聚合,但要回復原本冰淇淋鬆軟口感,需要數萬個巧合般的分子鍵結,要如何成為可能?如果K像過期的香草冰淇淋般融化掉了,我又該如何重新拼湊出原來的K呢?與其如此,不如花更多時間在思考如何面對重新凝固、已截然不同的K還更實際些。</span><span lang="JA" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-language: JA; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">畢竟K是</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-language: JA; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;">koule</span><span lang="JA" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-language: JA; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">的かわ,不如這麼說吧!至少,現在在我眼前,自稱是K的這名男子,還未真像冰淇淋那樣融化,他融化的那一刻,也是我無法再繼續述說他故事的時刻,還是說,我停止敘述K的故事的那一刻,K便會像冰淇淋那樣融化消失、不復存在呢?</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-language: JA; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">其二、可能中央車站周圍原本是相當繁華,足以被稱作城市中央的地區,只是因為某些不明因素沒落了,可能是因為戰爭、政治的角力,或是被新都心給取代。不論原因為何,畢竟這些都是毫無根據的臆測;但顯而易見的是,如果中央車站確實曾是個繁華的地區,那它衰敗的速度與幅度實在大得驚人。如今此地實在看不到半點可能曾是摩天大樓、雕梁畫棟的遺跡,甚至也看不出曾有過任何整齊街道的跡象,只是徒然地被肆無忌憚的貧民窟違章建築覆滿,野狗囂張、穢蟲橫行。經年照不到陽光使得這裡空氣裡溢滿霉味,實際上,幾乎每一座貧民「住處」(實在很難稱其為「房子」,因為大部份都只是破磚與髒布的組合體,有些甚至只是樹枝撐住幾塊碎布,稱作帳篷都很勉強的湊合玩意兒)的外牆、屋頂都多少沾了些黴斑、向陰的蘚苔植物之屬。根據八年前某位瘋狂總統突發奇想對這塊區域進行人口估算的報告書,按人口密度及貧民窟涵蓋面積來計算,中央車站可能居住了相當於城市百分之十人口的流浪漢,而且絕大部份屬於幽靈人口,姑且不論這份來自瘋狂政府的統計可信度如何,這實在是個驚人的數字,不論就比例與密度而言,很難想像中央車站住了那麼多人,這還是幾年前的資料,以該處的黑暗逐年緩慢擴張的程度而言,這個數字想必又成長不少。</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">總地來說,這個說法的可信度偏低,因為實在找不到任何佐證足以證明中央車站的確曾經繁華過,包含國民教育歷史課本在內的任何史料都對這段歷史隻字未提,可能只是來自該地的居民出於自卑感而捏造的家族史,或是當地沒落望族末裔酒醉後的自吹自擂。值得一提的是,當年民眾罷免那位瘋狂總統時,對中央車站的調查也條列在他長得嚇人的罪狀清單上。</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">小男孩對中央車站為什麼叫中央車站有種強烈的好奇心,彷彿這個問題是他從娘胎裡帶來的。他一歲時開口說的第一個字不是媽媽,而是中央車站。他問媽媽,媽,為什麼中央車站要叫中央車站呢?這是他學齡伊始記得的第一個問題。媽媽卻跟他說,小孩子嘴巴要用來吃飯,纔會長得又高又壯,不要問這些有的沒的,不然魔鬼會把愛亂說話的小孩抓走。諸如此類在小丘宅區流傳已久,各種母親藉以嚇唬孩子的不入流詛咒。</span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; mso-fareast-font-family: 新細明體; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-15252492338889853882013-08-28T07:50:00.000-07:002014-06-24T05:25:00.234-07:00【影評】2013金馬奇幻影展影評.系列之四:《情獸》<div class="MsoNormal">
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-48012558953373871412013-08-28T07:46:00.003-07:002014-06-24T05:25:38.046-07:00【影評】2013金馬奇幻影展影評.系列之三:《大奧:永遠》<div class="MsoNormal">
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-61810882262021909852013-08-28T07:40:00.000-07:002014-06-24T05:27:11.622-07:00【影評】2013金馬奇幻影展影評.系列之一:《胭脂扣》<div class="MsoNormal">
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-85149880159605467172013-08-28T07:36:00.000-07:002014-06-24T05:30:22.679-07:00【劇評】評臺大戲劇系2013製作《酒神》(The Bacchae)<div class="MsoNormal">
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-743866911374716902013-08-28T07:30:00.000-07:002014-06-24T05:32:27.719-07:00【詩】理想胎體方程式──社運不死,只是初生<div class="MsoNormal">
<b><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">理想胎體方程式──社運不死,只是初生</span></b></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">給我上千萬個常數,在行軍的時候唱成歌<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;"> </span><span style="font-family: "新細明體","serif"; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font: major-fareast; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-fareast;">讓我變成你多年前與多年後的樣子<span lang="EN-US"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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after-modernliteraturehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12400266138825552175noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1184463769211156248.post-61089107577304708052013-08-28T07:21:00.000-07:002014-06-24T05:34:02.560-07:00【樂評】克尼亞瑟夫 巴哈無伴奏大提琴獨奏會 評論<div class="MsoNormal">
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